dear diary, sâmbătă, Ian 7 2012

Dear diary, how come I cannot open up to you like I used to do? How come every time I try to write something I go blank in front of the word sheet? How come? Good question I tell myself every day. So far I have a lot of questions and well zero answers.  It’s a cliché I know …

Now the holidays are over, the time of mopping around is also over.

I made myself another gift … a trip to Rome, my very first trip of this kind … but as always I cannot feel joy at full capacity.  The fact is that if I do not have with whom to share this … it doesn’t mean anything to me. Yep, this is the truth … but still, I cannot fuckin’ wait to pack my bags and just go.

I’m gazing at this page, half opened on my desktop and … another thought pops into my mind … seaside … yes, just for this I’m glad the holidays are over.  Oh sweet memories …maybe this time … just this once … “sigh”

I hope, though I’m a realistic to pessimistic person that, this year is “the happy one”…that when my b-day comes i can say for sure that “this is it”. Yes I’m daydreaming right now, but hey! dreams are mine and only mine so i can dream anything i want.

 

 

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2012 luni, Ian 2 2012

So, here I am again, facing another year, which has disappointed me from the very beginning.  Behind the mask of joy there was sadness … it still is. Sadly, I do not recover as fast as I used to do.

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I guess in the subconscious I like to be disappointed or look for this because I do not know any other familiar feeling.

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toooooy sâmbătă, Dec 17 2011

This is the first post written from my new “toy”, a laptop…I can say that x-mass came earlier for me…and also next year’s Easter bunny and so on )

I just can’t get enough of it….yes I don’t get presents like this every day … well … I don’t get anything…but I daydream to a lot of things.

No, I won’t get mushy right now though it’s that time of the year when you look back and remember everything. I don’t want too … as I said before this year was the worst, personally speaking…and  what gets me down is that I can’t shake the feeling that this is here to stay for a while.

But, hey, let’s get back to the original message … I’m sooo happy with this laptop.

 

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So… December again sâmbătă, Dec 3 2011

I love this month, mostly because every year I hope to have “that magic” you see in the movies or in cartoons (I tend to daydream and wait for the reality to hit me in the face). Also because it reminds me of the few nice memories I have from all the past years.

I remember until the age of 10 the snowy street full of kids and sledges, THE snowball fight, cookies, singing carols and receiving pretzels, tangerines, sometimes even “snow white cookie”.  Apples, nuts and so on. I remember coming home with a bag full of this and just emptying it on the bed in my mom screams that I’m making a mess…. Of course I was ignoring her because I was very happy and I wanted to tell her the story of every cookie received.

I remember discovering the x-mass fairs and buying books, candles, ornaments… going to the movies … drinking hot cocoa or wine (depends on the bar and company)..Seeing the city lights.

I remember enjoying the first snow with people dear to me…

 

And this, pretty much, sums it up…but it keeps me hoping that “that magic” is out there somewhere … not yet for me though.

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Another morning, another story to tell (not that kind of story:D) sâmbătă, Noi 5 2011

Today’s issue: banks. (Like them? NO as well as other institution in the service of the people)

Fact 1:  the employer assigns you a bank account where you will receive your monthly payment.

Fact 2: after moving to another employer you do not need that bank account anymore … but … because you have quite an amount on it (this is the “me” part) you keep it until you decide what to do with the money and also … the card is still valid.

Fact 3: after a decision has been made and you no longer need that plastic … you think about going to the bank and cancel it …. But it’s just a mere thought…. You still have a silly amount on it and the card is valid.

Then you get all busy and forget about it… Let’s say for a year…when the card has expired.

Next best thing to do is find some time and go to cancel that darn account.  I did but I had the luck to stumble on a very nice person who loves her job as nothing else in the world and who didn’t understand what I wanted.  Because there was an issue with that plastic and that they needed to find out where was the one who got issued after this one expired she said to fill in a form and in 3 days she’ll cal me and notifies me about it.

A week has passed and I called to that agency. Another person answered that I have to come today in their office hours because only the plastic is closed and not the account, that I didn’t requested this and if I don’t come today I will pay another 3 Ron for some shit they do taking care of your account. Moreover they are not obligated to notify you in any way.

So let’s say …. You go like a “normal person” to the bank, request a service and that officer gives you the forms you need to fill in. As a “normal person” you look at the form, understand only the part of name, surname, signature and address … ask for details about what you do not get and believe that the person in front of you KNOWS what to give you for the service requested.  BUT wait NO, some of them do not know and make mistakes that you cannot see…and if you are very very lucky… You will find out after a couple of years that you have debts!

I got passed the urge to yell at her over the phone and ask their office hours, hoping that she says 18:00 or 19:00. But no, she confirmed what I was seeing on the website 17:30. Wtf?!?!

I told her I cannot make it. She suggested going to the X mall or X supermarket! I reverted angry saying that if I came to that agency is because it’s the one closest to me …  and her colleague made a mistake, also she never called back … and ended the conversation with a thank you for your time.

Really I wanted to go the next morning and to ruin their office day but, my employer works with this bank so with a little help from the accounting department I received the second form, filled it, sign it, gave the 3 freaking Ron and waited for her to have a trip to the bank and give them.

For now I wait because an account is closed in 4 days…. Oh yeah also they said they will notify me (wtf!?!! They got stuck on a word which their policy excludes it)

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